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but now s multiply nha kuh..

nag oopen up.. ng mga ngyari s life kuh..
almost diary kuh n nga un ee..

at madami nkung post dun..

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The “parang kayo, pero hindi” stage. Others call it MU or mutual understanding. Pseudo-relationships. Pseudo-boyfriends.Pseudo-girlfriend s, Flings. Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase where the persons involved are more than friends, but not quite lovers. Puwedeng may verbal agreement, puwedeng wala. One or both of you may have admitted your feelings, possible ding hindi. You just let your gestures do the talking for you. Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari. Hindi kayo mag-on. Pero sa kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi. This kind of “relationship” can happen at different stages for different reasons. It can happen after a break-up. You still love each other, and you want to be with each other but you broke up for a reason. And for reasons that you alone know, ayaw niyo na muna magkabalikan. It can also happen before a relationship, iyong pareho kayong nakikiramdam. Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag-seryoso kaya kunwa-kunwarian lang muna. Testing lang. Puwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayo kasi isa sa inyo –usually the guy –may ka-relasyon na. Kaya habang hindi pa siya nakikipag-break doon sa girl (sabi niya makikipag-break siya soon pero di naman niya ginagawa, pwede ring vice-versa), wala muna kayong relasyon para nga naman hindi siya nangagaliwa kasi “hindi naman kayo.” This pseudo-relationship stage, for a time, can be fun. Lalo na kung naghahanap ka lang naman ng “kalaro.” Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expect na may patutunguhan kayo kasi wala talagang kasiguraduhan. So bakit ang daming nagse-settle sa ganitong set up ganoong hindi naman sigurado kung may patutunguhan? Iba’t ibang dahilan. Puwedeng for fun lang. Puwedeng “buti na iyan kesa wala” or puwede na iyang “pantawid-gutom.” Meaning, habang wala pa yong the real thing, doon muna sa kunwa-kunwarian. For those who are not in a serious relationship, they would think that pseudo-relationship is better than no relationship at all. It would be fun, if all you are after for is that “kilig” feeling. No commitments involved. For the simplest reason that they couldn’t commit, because they were either committed to someone else, or that they weren’t ready to commit. My rationalization, “okay na iyun, kesa wala.” Ang habol ko lang naman, iyong kilig feeling. Iyong merong nagtatanong kung kumusta araw ko. Iyong merong ka-cuddle sa beach outing. Iyong kapag tumunog ang cellphone, mapapangiti na ako dahil alam kong galing sa kanya ang message. Iyong merong laging kasama,o kausap. Habang wala pa ang the real thing, tapos minsan k chat mo,puwede na itong pagtiyagaan. But then I learned that although it was only a pseudo-relationship, the emotions were real. Una, you can’t ask to commit. Since it’s not really a relationship, you can’t demand commitment from your partner. Ano ba kayo? May K ka nga ba magpasundo ng hatinggabi? You will always be uncertain about your role in his/her life. You can’t expect him/her to be always there with you. And if you feel jealous of the other girls/guys, you just have to keep it to yourself. Ano ka ba niya para magselos? Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with him/her? You can’t be sure if he/she feels the same way. Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na mahal ka rin niya. Even if you are dying to tell you love him/her, you can’t. Because you’re not sure if she’ll like it. Baka mapahiya ka lang. This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the relationship. Or if there is a relationship at all. Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much? What if you have invested all your emotions and this man/woman hasn’t? What if you remain faithful to him/her, not entertaining other guys/girls, only to find out that he/she is seeing other guys/girls? Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationships, it is fleeting. When a disagreement sets in, or when one of you gets cold, then that would be the end of it. Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar sa isang pseudo-relationship. Wala kang pinanghahawakan. Kasi sa pseudo-relationship, there is no “us.” Meron lang “you and me,” hindi “us.” Butisana

kung pseudo-pain din lang ang mararanasan mo. Kaso, hindi eh. Real pain. And usually, kahit tapos na ang pseudo-relationship, hindi mo maiwasan umasang one day, may karugtong pa rin yun. And you will be miserable, hoping to bring back what you used to have, only to find out eventually that the guy/girl is in another pseudo-relationship with somebody else. Ang hirap, ano? You agreed to this kind of set up for fun and then you’d end up hurting yourself in the process.Pero puwede naman maiwasan ang pain eh. Puwede naman na hindi mo muna isipin ang future and just enjoy the feeling, without thinking of the consequences. But if you are certain that you are going to hurt yourself in the process, kailangan mo mamili. You can be happy and live the moment without worrying what would happen next. Or you can stop settling with pseudo-relationships and wait for the real thing. Ang bottom line lang naman, kung magpapasaya sa iyo, gawin mo. Ihanda mo lang ang sarili mo sa consequence. Dahil ang “parang kayo pero hindi” stage ay bihirang nagiging totoo. Usually, hanggang doon lang siya … almost, but not quite.

weird dbha?? my kilala kng ganyan ee.. nakakainis lang.. lam mu b yun leska?? leslie?? bhabha?? mumu?? hihi..

its been a month n rin since napagod yung puso kuh kakaiyak s kanya.. mag ccnungaling kuh kung ssbihin kuh n dkuh n cya mahal.. pero ang totoo mahal n mahal kuh cya kahit gnun gnawa nya skin.. totoo n masakit yung pinagdadaanan kuh ngaun, nakakagulat yung bigla k lang iniwan s ere at hindi mu lam ang rason.. mababaw daw pero for him hindi.. ok nkuh nung lam kuh n my hihintayin kuh.. sbi nga nya, “wait mu lang kuh pagnakatapos nkuh..” pero ang tanung kelan?? wala kung gnawa kundi maghintay.. hintayin yung txt, comment, tawag at masabi nya skin n sorry.. akala kuh ok n lahat samin.. pero dumating yung time n dkuh inaasahan.. it was oct9,2008 when i went to FEU.. i decided to go in the chapel.. kasi i need assurance, i need prayers for me to grow up and to solve my problem.. lam kuh kasi n everytym n my problem kuh c GOD lang ang kausap kuh at sandalan kuh.. i prayed, sbi kuh “GOD, if ches is really d ryt one for me.. pls give me a sign..  pls stay wid me throughout my weaknesses.. sana maaus ulet nmin toh..” after dat.. i went to comp shop.. at dkuh inaasahan yung nkita kuh.. he’s wid other arms.. inulit kuh ulet yung pictures bka sakaling nananaginip lang kuh s nkita kuh.. but it’s true.. totoo yung nkita kuh.. lam mu yung filing n bnagsakan k ng sobrang laking bato.. parang gumuho lahat.. nanlumo kuh.. napaluhod kuh s nkita kuh.. at hindi kuh nakapagsalita.. bigla nlang tumulo yung luha kuh s sbrang skit.. napaicip kuh.. KAYA PALA.. kaya pala hindi n cya worried to me.. hindi n nya kuh masyadong tntxt.. d nya n inaaprove lahat.. KINALIMUTAN nya nkuh agad.. KAYA PALA..

tanung kaya kuh p kaya??

i already change my layout..
thanks to jAn april..
i love her layouts so cool..^^
yuhoo.. im happy..^^

my favorite number 1 of september…
yay yay..^^ ahihi..

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juz follow d rules here…
ok…

wel, this is a chance dat i cud help you thru this…

the thing is i found dis one at jellymuffin.com…

anyway… these are the things dat il assure you…

if you want to:

a. default scrolling txt
<marquee>Default scrolling marquee(your txt)</marquee><br /><center><a style="padding:3px;background:#000;color:#00ADEF;font-family:tahoma;font-size:11px;font-weight:bold;text-decoration:none;border:3px double #00ADEF" href="http://www.JellyMuffin.com" target="_blank">JellyMuffin.com</a></center>

b. left to right scrolling txt
<marquee direction="right">left to right scrolling marquee(your txt)</marquee><br /><center><a style="padding:3px;background:#000;color:#00ADEF;font-family:tahoma;font-size:11px;font-weight:bold;text-decoration:none;border:3px double #00ADEF" href="http://www.JellyMuffin.com" target="_blank">JellyMuffin.com</a></center>

c. alternate scrolling txt
<marquee behavior="alternate">alternate scrolling marquee(your txt)</marquee><br /><center><a style="padding:3px;background:#000;color:#00ADEF;font-family:tahoma;font-size:11px;font-weight:bold;text-decoration:none;border:3px double #00ADEF" href="http://www.JellyMuffin.com" target="_blank">JellyMuffin.com</a></center>

d. bottom to top scrolling txt
<marquee direction="up">bottom to top scrolling marquee(your txt)</marquee><br /><center><a style="padding:3px;background:#000;color:#00ADEF;font-family:tahoma;font-size:11px;font-weight:bold;text-decoration:none;border:3px double #00ADEF" href="http://www.JellyMuffin.com" target="_blank">JellyMuffin.com</a></center>

e. top to bottom scrolling txt
<marquee direction="bottom">top to bottom scrolling marquee(your txt)</marquee><br /><center><a style="padding:3px;background:#000;color:#00ADEF;font-family:tahoma;font-size:11px;font-weight:bold;text-decoration:none;border:3px double #00ADEF" href="http://www.JellyMuffin.com" target="_blank">JellyMuffin.com</a></center>

f. up and down bouncing scrolling txt
<marquee  direction="up" behavior="alternate">up and down bouncing scrolling marquee(your txt)</marquee><br /><center><a style="padding:3px;background:#000;color:#00ADEF;font-family:tahoma;font-size:11px;font-weight:bold;text-decoration:none;border:3px double #00ADEF" href="http://www.JellyMuffin.com" target="_blank">JellyMuffin.com</a></center>

thanks… i think this cud be a great help for a newbie… ^-^

juz CAnt hELp pag naririnig kUh yuNg sOng natOh…
i fEEL high na pArAng bAsta…
pAg inLovE ka… dErs nOthing tO wOrRy b??
tAmA bkUh??? bAstA… ang gAndA ng Lyrics… ^-^

Kissing you was not what I had planned
And now I’m not so sure just where I stand
I wasn’t looking for true love
But now you’re looking at me
You’re the only one I can think of
You’re the only one I see

CHORUS:
All I need
Is just a little more time
To be sure of what I feel
Is it all in my mind
Cause it seems so hard to believe
That you’re all I need

Yes it’s true we’ve all been hurt before
But it doesn’t seem to matter anymore
It may be a chance we’re taking
But it always comes to this
If this isn’t love we’re makin’
Then I don’t know what it is

All I need
Is just a little more time
To be sure of what I feel
Is it all in my mind
Cause it seems so hard to believe

All I need
Is just a little more time
To be sure of what I feel
Is it all in my mind
Cause it seems so hard to believe
That you’re all I need

No stars are out tonight
Cause we’re shining our own light
And it’s never felt so right
Cause girl the way I’m feeling
It’s easy to believe
That you’re all I need
That you’re all I need
Ahhhh

anu aNg feeLing…

na paRanG kayO???

perO hiNdi naMan kayO???

perO d way na magtreat kayO wid eaCh otheR eh parang mY sOmethinG…

hiraP iexpLain dbha????

bkit b Lague mu naLang kUh gngnito…

bnbaLewaLa…

nagKuLang b Kuh at gnyaN ka na skin…

perO ok Lang…

dtOh Lang kuh khit anuNg mangyaRi…

iLoveyOu mYn… =(