i dont know…why im still infront of the computer and just checkin my account s fwendster… anxiety nnmn toh to me… haha!!! fear of unknown… nagging mixed yung emotions n nffil ku ryt now… and i wonder why im fillin dis way…. uyy!!! wake up… yanee… still der??? yah… =)
ewan ku b… dis pas few days,,??? something was happened to me and tlga nmn coincidence… wel, that certain incident is getting me bother now… wahhh…=) anu ba toh…
hmmm, medyo mahirap ryt… but actually at first pag my relationship tayo… ang isasagot natin yung mahal moh dba??? saka mo nalang pipiliin na "fwends pala…" kapag naghiwalay na kayo o my ngyaring hindi maganda… nakakatawa nga kasi my tyms na hindi na kyo nagkakasama s lakad ng barkada dhil s my lakad kayo… db??? pero pag nagkaroon ng misunderstanding bblik kdin s knila… at ang malupit don… tatanggapin k nila gad ng buong puso…!!! naks… kktouch db??? tapos bbgyan ka pa nila ng advice… wid matching hug and kiss pa at sasabhin… "yanee, welcome ulet… miss ka na nmin… tagal mong nawala ahh… tama n nga yang kagagahan mo hahahaha!!!! " ayun at masaya ulet kami…
pero ryt now… mas pipiliin ko yung mga fwends ko kasi hindi nla akong iiwan… jan lang cla to me para iguide at ma enjoy yung life koh… masaya naman ehh kahit walang bf… kasi dami mong nggain n fwends… pag tinatanong nga ako, "my bf kanaba???" wel, sagot ko smile lang sabay sabing "wala… bakit gusto mo,hindi pwede ehh." fwends nalang…" ewan ko kung bkit cguro naiicip ko yung napromise ko s dad ko… at gusto kong matupad yun…
mahirap na kasi akong magtiwala after nung ngayari to me… pano sobrang minahal ko cya pero cnayang nya lang yung effort koh… sakit db??? pero i made myself n mging busy sa lahat ng bagay to forget him… at happy ko kasi as tym goes by,, inaacept ko na "LOST" nya yun at hindi ako…. ryt???
thanks GOD… =)
=yanee=
yesterday, nagreview kmi s school… for our FUNDAMENTALS OF NURSING part 2… hindi ko akalain na makakarelate ako s lecture ng professor nmn about loss and grief… dat is wen i realized the four stages of grieving… first, is denial… i remember that feeling nung nasa first stage palan ng break up dba??? yung shock at ang sbihin na "hindi pa kami break." yun yung mga lines ehh… tapos, the second is anger… typically, my gnun stage talaga na my magagalit dhil s ngyari db??? tulad ko… pero hindi… next is, bargaining… yung sinisisi si God o di kaya gnito, "gagawin ko lahat lord, wag lang cya mawala to me…" gnun… =) nagawa ko yun… pero yaw ko ng ulitin… past na ehh… next is, denial stage… yun yung meron two ways, yung you open your feeling and thoughts to others kung bkit gnun yung ngyri at yung isa eh yung sinasarili mo lang…. at this tym nadun palang ako sa stage ng DENIAL… pero konti nalang nasa last stage na ko ng ACCEPTANCE… yung oi, ok na ko ready nako ulit… meron pang sakit pero hindi mo na mapapancin kasi ok na sau yung ngyari… Kumbaga tanggap mo na…!!!! =)
february na nga…
at akalain mu na hindi ku nppancin ang oras…
dami kasi nmng activities s skul…
mabuti narin yun para maforget ku yung mga problems na naeencountered ko…
para maforget ko yung pagiging depressed ko…
tym to tym mdyo nakakarecover nrin ko…
pero filin ku ders somthing wrong…
and ireally dont know why…!!
pero its better kung ililift ku nlang yun kay God…
because he knows kung no tlaga yung mngyayari to me…
for us… =)
tagal narin n hindi prin ku makarecover…
pero my nagpapasyml nmn skin ehh…
sana cya yung makapuno nun…=)
